-- baby your love is gonna change me <3

& I know that we can be so amazin,
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....
Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out, You'll make me work so we can work to work it out, And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm....
I just haven't met you yet. <3>

aw man the song is SOO cute ! just the lyrics & the music video is adorable . i wonder if you can ever find the ONE @ a grocery store LOL ? ;) that would be sooo movie like love story ! sorry , mad addiction to the song :)

so lets see , whats beeen going on lately .. hmmmmm .. well , new relationships are devolping thats one thing LOL
so yeah two guys .. the one i said before (ladder ) and now casserole . yes i have gay names ): idk why LOL but yeah , i think im slowly falling for ladder . he is SOO sweet and just the past two days spending tiime with him was real cute. he just needs to talk more and i`ll be REAL happy. i know hes shy so im not gonna give up . im determined for what i want . us chilling & the park with angel and arrow LOL ! that was jks. the whole cheesy things the boys did to me and annie . " hey i bet you can`t jump over the bench ! - do you have faith in me " LMFAO . WTF that was soo gay , but i enjoy the heating up you boys did fro us girlies ;) but now in the back of my mind there is casserole .. he is REALLY sweet & like is SO boyfraaan material . but he just has to much of a best fraan guy to him .. i think he likes me too cos hes beeen tryin to signal it in and i honestly don`t know what to say to him .. i don`t wnna break his heart. he frikking protected me from this dude who keeps like pushing me ): im sorta torn in betweeen the two . ladder is SOO cute in his own way, and as cheesy he maybe sometimes .. i styll find it adorable :D but then there is casserole who would honestly ditch his friends to talk to me and we talk about just anything to each other . ladder is just a littlee teenie tiny shy sometimes .. so idk what to do sometimes . one min ladder is getting me fallin for me and then next when casserole talks with his kind words i fnd them so cute :) idk .. but like i think i wanna go for ladder .. like the song said .. -- i just haven`t met YOU yet <3

so also , yes LONNNNG blog i know . its frikking two in the morning . partyyy out today with old mmhs friends <3 missed their asses so darn much : ) jasmine buuurfday today and we had like a FASTASS eatng time @ tomato sushi LOL . fun timesss b . camwhored ALOT and had plently of laughs. thats how life should always be . shouldn`t let stuppid crap or money get in the way of happiness . just gotta remember live your life and take the risk as if there is no tomorrow (y) so im gonna go to bed , whoever actually reads this .. sorry for my whole confession moment heheee ! SLAM (L) :)

- cw

f'real ?

REALLY ? are you f'real . wtf already ?!
just beeen like a month ish into school and already shyt talkers on me . honestly thought this was a soft school .. ahah my ass . am i really calling for your attention ? and about my pants ? ARE YOU SERIOUS NIGGA ?!
honestly beoootches go suck yourselves and get over yourself . watever , you ain`t important and think that gets me down , AHAHA funny . no .

is there anything left in this world to satify me ? <3

so i haven`t been blogging for a PRETTY long time . things been going pretty well , things been changing over time . losing old friends and making new ones . thats what happens when things change .. you have to sacrifice to gain something . so yeah , schools been good , the boys have been good LOL espcially "ladder" , LMFAO , but it feels like sometimes hes like two different people . when i see him he`s different but when i talk to him on msn or text , he talks SOO much . im willing to get to know him but am i ready to put myself out there or should i keep it to myself . but honestly im willing to take that risk becos i rather have myself take the risk than to ever wonder what "could" have happened . so yeah , this yr i realize im really different . i really stepped up on the whole confidence thing and try to be more open and friendlier. so yeahh RUMOURS >; ( things already been said around the school about me ): ALREADY EHH . ONE MONTH and this ALL happens , darn it . but rather be somebody than nobody . but things have been good in life , just atm scared all that happiness might eb taken away . so imma continue on and taking risk becos i ain`t settling fro what " could" happen . so imma keep talking with him & hopefully make progress , i know hes a good guy and i`ll get to know him <3>

anyways , i`ll blog back soon hopefully , beeen pretty busy ! SEMI FORMAL today fro church which was aweosme and then i got into a PLAY <3>