your the reason i smile . ♥

" you`re a beautiful surprise . "
- indie arie♥

so i`ve been listening to this song that just talks about finding the one . just reminds me so much of my boyfriend LOL. so yeah , sorta a blog about him. i`m really glad i met him this year. honestly i had no intentions of finding a boyfriend , mostly just checking them out LOL but yeah , i still remember when i first walked into that class and i thought you were cute . a month later i sat beside you and thats where it all started . talking to you everyday then our feelings began to grow . you just make me smile with you`re little sped moments :) i love how we have those silly moments of acting retaaaarded and then i love how we have those days where we just sit and talk about everything . i remember the day @ second cup . just sat there with you for two hours just talking about everything . school , cars , movies .. everything . your my monkey in a cup LOL ! then you had a talk with me about our "point of view " during the time before we went out LOL . ohmygsh , just these little things you do just gets me falling more in love with you.
im just really thankful that i moved here cos then i wouldn`t have met you and wouldn`t have fallen in love with the person you are babe ♥
` 110709 ♥

alsoooo , im just really thankful for everything in general. im really happy for the family that god have provided for me. they have been there for & supported me in every way. they have honestly put up with the stupid things i`ve done and they styll love me. without them idk who i would have became. tho some days we argue and hate each other but we all know that deep down we love each other ♥

- also im thankful for my friends. tho i met some new ones this yr & gotten close to them i have not forgotten my old ones. i styll remember those days back at mmhs where we laugh @ the randomest things and just have a great time during lunch cos that's our like chilling time. i remember the summer time where we all head down to the beach , birthday parties , bbtea . those were the days , & now @ peths i met new friends who are close with god and can have a spiritual walk with me. im just very fortunate to have known the people who are part of my life today. you guys are the best .

- love cw ♥

uhhh funny but awkwarddd .. LOOOL ♥

ROFLLLL , i honestly know the weirdest people ! okay so yeah today i just notice everyone seem to msg me today on msn . okay so right at this moment i have this guy from my elementry school confessing how he had a crush for me in elementry school for the longest time LOOOL wtf ?! he was datin my friend too , thats messed , period . hes like sayin how he was wants to grab my ass and stuff O_O
and then i have this other guys who was like IN LOVE with me last yr and asked me out like 1000million times ! and now hes saying how he wants to take me out to dinner for my birthday LOOOL .
and then i have alexxx my ah jiy telling me he wants a gay partner or a girl who makes sandwiches and bed sheets for him ! LFMAO you crack me uppppp budddy :)
then i have my new freind telling me that its over between him & his girl whom they been tgt for like 10 months ! likeeeeeee whoooooa ):
so saddd , tryna talk to him about it now .
and then i have gordon my bestie who i misss to death , talking about spacing out in exams LOL best thing to do honestly .
& last but not least , my boyfriend :)
just talking with him gets me smiling ♥ miss him sooo much tho i saw him before my exam today .
today exam was such a epic fail . i was doing so well with the multiple choice then the long answer ones i was like ohhhhh snap D:
i didn`t know half the answers. honestly made them uppp ! oh well , styll passing at least (y)
yeah one more exam tmrw , gotta start crammmming .. soon :)

anyways what a interesting day im having .
bloggg again later !

-cw♥

this ain't no fantasy, it is a dream come true ♥

well well , haven`t worte in a pretty long time :O
my bad LOL , soo this week is pretty stressful . semester one just ended .. boo (n) cos no more class with baby . but then now i get to relax cos of exam week . i only have like two exams . im SOOO frikking lazy to study . idk why . i know im passing atm so im like slacking off . so yeah . anything interesting happening the past week . not really .. just been chillin aroung school . rapping with alex and tryna help patrick write songs. that was such a fail .. ):
but yeah , friday was fun . chilled a bit with s.lam . he looks so damn cyyyyyute in a fitted . like oh my motha fcuken damn :O so hot LOL
but yeah chilled with him for a bit and made bets with him . got this thing we do now LOL.
after went to KNA with nat and viv . that was fun . tho steph and viv left me and nat cos they needed to study for history exam :( but yeah me and nat was chilling with jesse and brady and dickson . we have the most interestiing talk . we went from talking about lights to animals , to crap to business , to maple story to Bjays . like WTF . so messed up but so jks . it was real fun. we were suppose to be studying for exams . like all of us brought books and everythng but we didn`t even bother @ all LOL.
+ this week , it was a good week , everything was just easier and i got to be more close with steven . we talking about how we met and his point of view of everything . we had our bonding moment and that was uber fun f`real ♥
im happy things are getting better with us and that were growing closer. idk but for some reason meeting knew people especially like guys got me feeling more attached to steven and feels like i know hes important to me :)
hope thats a goood thing LOL
but yeaaah , gotta clean my room atm cos i made a mess the pass few days and today i went babysitting @ SCAC and i got paid 1O bucks likeee woot woot LOL
but yeah gotta clean and start busting my ass to studying . blog more soon !

- cw ♥

im feelin' so much different then before ♥

oh hot damn , didn`t post for a while . so whats new lately .. hmmm ..?
nothing much lately , this week was verry stressful or more like confusing week for me.
didn`t spend that much time with boyfriend cos i went down to mmhs & i went shopping for my jacket so that i can go snowboarding with the school (y) but yeah on friday was a good / bad day for me . so yeahh , i was like so exicted for after school and totally didn`t pay attention to math test cos i just wanted to see steven and spend time with him cos i missed him for the pass few days . then after school he like tells me hes leaving , hugs me and left D:
honestly that broke my heart into two . he tells me he missed me SOO much and stuff but he just leaves . and it sucked more when everyone kept asking me where he was and why he didn`t stay i tried doing the whole silent treatment but i couldn`t cos i missed him too much so then i finally msged him . told him i missed him and hes like wanna do something liek RIGHT NOW cos he missed me too :)
so we end up chilling until 7- 11 something . just that time with him made me :D
so yeah weekends was such a (n) , i got sick for a bit . my head felt like it was a hot air balloon & then i tried changing my ringtone on my phone but not only did i do that , i end uo killing it too ;$
fml moment for me honestly . like it kept freezing , i think my ringtone had a virus to it or something like wtf -.-
so yah , steven texted me and i was in the middle of texting him back and it froze .. fml fml fml !
so i finally manage to delet the ringtone and it worked again ! i was so happy :)
first thing i do , text steven ♥
and we end up texting the whole night cos i was in my bed to sick to move to my laptop LOL .
i watched family guy all night . honestly what a dumbass show , but so jokes at the same time LFMAO.
so yeah texted all night until 2 something , then i fell asleep not replying to him , then i woke up @ like 6 and texted him back LOL and apologized for sleepin on him . :)

so yeah not much happened but i`ll keep posting , ♥

ps ; stressing out for food & nutrition class tomorrow & the day after , major testing & MAJOR studying coming D:

- cw ♥

adoreee you ♥

Cause it's in a smile, uh oh,
Oh in the crowd, uh oh,
Oh and I wonder if you hear me..(8)

LMFAO , ^ annie got those lyrics in my head now ♥

so whats been good lately . hmm stressing out for school ): just realize that there isn`t much time left for this semester. its ending .. im happy yet im (N) cos i have class with my baby but in three weeks i don`t ):
so yeah , been stayin up real late tryna do assignments D:
eye bags much LOL so yeah . much hasn`t happen the past few days. just visited mmhs yesterday and i saw like my friends :) miss em like hella lot ! what else , oh ya guess who i saw LOL hasan ! ohmygsh , that kid cracks me up like craaaaazy ! he walked by and was like WHOAAA ! then hes like your hair its black and he gets all smiley . uh ew buddy no -.- then he gave me one of those "checking you out look " LOL . whatta day form that . also had my intimate talk with gordon :) miss that loserface uber much ♥
so yeah , missing those days with you guys .. things seem so different .. what happened :O
yeah were a yr older but now we all seem like strangers ? how the heck did that happen ):

; guess what ! i got a TNA JACKET CHEEYEAH ♥ now i can go snowboarding without freezng my bum :)
ps; schools having a snowboard / skiing trip , so going ! gotta do my new year resolutions hehee !
did a bit of shopping today too , mostly accesories .
anways the past two days i haven`t been chilling with my friends after school cos i went to mmhs and i had to go to fairview today . i miss them so much ): and i didn`t get to chill with boyfriend too which is BOO (N)
but its okay , tmrw is friday whcih mean weekend is coming = sleep <3>

HAPPY BiRTHDAY BABY ♥

lets begin with , happy birthday baby :)
so today i was actually wide awake during school tho i only had 5 hours of sleep LOL honestly you shud see the size of my eye bags , they are MASSIVE :O
but yeah . business was boring like hell , didn`t even study for my test tmrw ): so screwedd .. but during civics had to do a presentation for YPI and i had my phone on my bum pocket. and guess what steven does -.-
hes texts me 10 times , so when i was presenting i had my ass vibrating . i was liek trying to hold in my laugh . felt so weird , whatta boob ):
but yeah , didn`t do much in classes today , kept texting like ususal LOL.
but yeah , after school watched a bit of the girls v-ball game but so akward cos there was like a line of guys staring at the girls booty & im just like there uhhh O_O
but went home later on cos i had asurprised fro steven LOL. so he came over and i had plan out eating cake with him. so i blindfolded him , then i lit the cake with sparklers but that was a fail , frikkin sparklers go out so fast and it like almost burned my fingers D:
so yeah i just like shoved him to it and was like uhh COME FAST, SEE IT < HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUAH LOL
but yeah , i got him a card too and put like two pictures of us in there:)
then i got him helium balloons which he untied and it flew up to my ceiling , ohmygsh that made me laugh SOO HARD. we were like oh crap how do we get it down. so we were like tryin so hard but we manage to get it.
then he tied it to his bag LOL . oh my he had to walk around with balloons above his head. i laughed SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hard . cos people were liek staring like wtf. he looked like up , mini style LOL

so yeah thats how my day went today . pretty fun . he made me :)
any doubts with him has gone away . we shud move on from the past and focus on the future ♥

ps; visiting mmhs tmrw to see my old chums ♥
can`t wait , miss em like a fat kid loves cake :)

blog tmrw
peaceeeeeeee !

-cw ♥

All Night Long ♥

seductive song name ehh ;) im sorta atm , really obsess with 2PMS songs. my friend natalie showed me them and got me hooked on ! they lyircs are REALLY good and the beats are to die for hehe!

so yeah the weekend is finally here :)
but it ends SO fast to me , guess time flies by when you with your loved one right ? so yeah , what did i do today .
of course i slept my ass in LOL. gotta take this opportunity and sleep in all the way. then i got up , did the usual. then this morning my baby texted me :)
i wanted to go chill with him around the city somewhere but who crushes my hopes .. my mommy ):
she said it was too cold to go out so i had to stay home. so what i did was went to second cup with steven . i was craving for their peppermint hot chocolate .. but it wasn`t there anymore .. fml what the FOCUS , don`t think wrong people LOL
so yeah yesterday we had this church performance and alike all my friends from PETHS was there . it was almost like a TC thing but really short version. there was like singing and skits and dances and like sharings from concelliors. it was REALLY good , honestly the stories touched me SO much . im really thankful for god that has provided so much for me. he provided me education , family friends , a home , steven . and just basically everything. he died for us and sometimes i feel so unworthy of it. he did it becos he loves us.
yesterday @ WTF they were saying how we shud tell the people important to you that you love them everyday . so they had volunteers go up with their cells and calling people they loved that they love them. it was so cute just to hear the person on the other line reply the same thing back . but yeah , the whole night just made me think over my life and the whole year coming up and what im gonna be doing with it .
now i can`t wait till TC , tc honestly changed my life last yr . i was so into god and felt like i was ready for anything , but then school got in the way and made me grow apart from god . im slowly feeling like im coming back to god. just some time to grow with him.

anyways , basically i had a very tiring and stressful but a good week ♥

gotta sleeep now , church tmrw then skating then HOMEWORK MY MOTHAAFLIPPING ASS OFF TMRW ):


- cw ♥

ROCK THAT BODY ;)

so this week , so hard getting my proper sleep not that i ever do LOL. i miss sleeeping in f`realz. but giess whats a very good song to me atm .. ROCK THAT BODY- BEP <3 that song is sexxx`d f`real LOL. so yeah this week . so stressed out . SOOO many projects and assignments assigned and due . haven`t even started cos thats how i am LOL. so yeah needa work harder (y)
but what happen this week .. hmmm well theres HAPPY2MONTHS BABY ! got him a matching cellphone key chain LOL
cos thats how cool we are :) but yeah just chilled with him at my house , even tho there wasn`t much to do spending it with you made it all good <3
but yeah today i had to go do this stuuupid ass YPI project for civics. mission down to 14th after school to interview this woman. yippeee ain`t that fun -.-
ohmygsh , i shud tell you about this thing thata happen to me that scared da SHYT outta me YO ):
so i was slowly falling asleeep when i suddenly heard a pounding noise beside my ear and in my head i was like WTF . and i open my eyes and i swear i saw a girl standing beside my bed. and then i closed my eyes and felt like a spirit go in my body cos then i couldn`t move my body . it moved my head and i was scared shytless ):
then it left my body and i was scared to move the whole night FML .
hopefully that doesn`t happen again yo .
soo , my slam, his birthday is coming uppp , his sweet 16th . i don`t know how to celebrate it with him cos he seems busy ):
so yeah , might be chilling with him on tuesday on the day of :)
okaaay , goal for this week , work on my PROJECTS > can`t fail nikkkkkaaa !

- cw

i never thought you would share me your life ♥,

FIRST DAY BACK TO SCHOOL .
honestly .. nothing special , same old same old LOL .
i actually was like wide awake to get ready for school , get to see all my friends .
but i was thinking back to mmhs , always my mind wanders to that , don`t know why , miss you guys too much ):
so yeah , first class .. business (n)
kill me honestly , the most boring ass class ever ! teacher is a cheap ho and keeps talking , no one cares -.-
but yeah , i was like texting all morning tryna not fall asleep . but i did sleep today LOL , in food class !
im so good hiding my sleeping from the teacher :)
today was a cold day . nothing special happen today .. hmmm except my boyfriends ear totally got a frost bite from the cold outside. he had to walk to school this morning , i feel bad . he looks like dumbo LOOOL.
s`kay , i styll love you ♥
oh yeaah ! today like everyone notice my black hair , so jokes. everyone was like oh is your natural hair light brown ? im just like O_O uhh i dyed it brown and now i dyed it black LOL. peths you guys crack me up hehee !

well , now i gotta start my ass of a projects for school , semester 2 coming soon which mean exams = epic fail ! blog laterrrr :)

- cw ♥

its 2k10 baaaaaaby ! <3

hmm , haven`t bloggedddd for a heck of a long time ! well im back . so hmmm , lets just start with a warm HAPPY NEW YEARS ! wow , looking back @ `O9 . manny memories f`real . don`t know how i would have gotten thru it without my family and friends . you guys mean SOO much to me , no lies . i styll remember the days back @ mmhs . fun times tho so much dumb sh*t happen and drama going on .. we all styll got thru it and im glad we did . this year we all became the person we are now from all the stuff we`ve been thru. missing those relaxing summer days where we just chill wherever , good times . partys , beach , pmall . no matter where my friends made my day . the big change for me during O9 was moving . i have never moved anywhere new or been the new kid .. boy was that a experince . thank gosh i had my best friend annie there with me . wasn`t for her i don`t know what the heck i would do ): but yeah , not a mmhs girly anywhere . i be rocking them PETHS LOL. yuppp , the new kid there . i remember how i was SO upset cos i made no friends in the beginning and i would go home crying . but then vivian and natalie and steph came up to me one day and asked me to eat lunch , friends ever since . thanks guys :)
hmm , i still miss mmhs with all my heart , but when i come to think of it . i wouldn`t change what happen this yr for it . if i stayed @ mmhs , i wouldn`t be with my loving stevenlam <3 or met any new friends . moving and adpating to a new enviroment was honestly a big change for me but a good one . cos if it wasn`t for that , i wouldn`t have stepped outta my comfort zone . honestly to me , i always knew my place and where i stand @ school back at mmhs . i knew who were the people who were beyotches , the fakes , the bullys , the ethnics groups . i always knew my place and what i have to do . but for once . i fee like im not in charge of whats going to happen . feels like i can finally go with the flow now .
new yr means new change .
made new year resolutions of course . try my best to follow em this yr LOL .
but main thing this yr is to go with the flow , and let things happen cos i know they happen for a reason .

+ hehee , today spent the first of 2o1o with my baby :)
interesting day with him . chilled @ home .
then went to play in the snow like little kids .
then went bowlinggg , can`t believe i got my ass pwned by someone who never bowled before D:
but its all good , i styll love him . <3

; if your reading this , imma leave you with something important for this yr mmky ?

love each day & live with no fear .
^ do that & you`ll be living your life to the fullest .

anyways , nights and imma try to blog more about my 2k10 :)

- cw .