another dayy .. yupp . tried to relax but didn`t . man .. is a plant that important . honestly . now shes all cheesed and stuff and like now its honestly buggin . they honestly don`t know how it feels like when you have no one to take the anger out . yeah i know its not good when you relaese it on someone but they do it . thank god im smart to use a blog . they just don`t relaize how hurtful it can be . mom sometimes just doesn`t settle for trying . it has to be this way or that way . she needs to get that she can`t get crap if she keeps demending it . honestly if she wants things done well , do it yourself or get a servant . im not tryng to be like selfish or anything , but i cut back a heck lot for her . not going out , stay home , do her stuff , bills .. everything . soon later i have school to think and stress over about . my life ain`t easy . things to do , trying to fit in . working hard .. honestly ain`t easy . summer is almost over .. this summer wasn`t super duper memorable . except wonderland , and VBS really . this summer i`ve never felt so out of my element . i`ve never felt so emotional and down . just thought summer was suppose to be having fun but really it feels like i took a visit to hell . just hope that things will get better . and maybe they will try to understand me . i relaize no one has ever asked if i was okay or if im alrite .. it sometimes feels as if im invisable or just a peasent . sucks ehh . what to do honestly. all i can do is give it time . crying ain`t gonna do much , except for getting pity which is not what i want . i know they get stressed and stuff . but i do too . thats what i need them to relaze . everyone else can raise they`re voice , yell at me and stuff . when i raise it i get screwed by my parents . like wtf really . noot fair . hope it gets better .. always time for redemption right ? hope so ..
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