you make me smile no matter what <3

hmm , haven`t blogged for a while since the date <3
so this week , what has happened .. hmm , i cooked this week ! pretty yummy muffins (y) food class is the bomb , honestly .. despite the fact we have a test and assignments due ): but yeah , this week i WAS sooooo tired . kept fallin asleeep in math class which is really bad . spent some time with him this week . this week was pretty ehh , cos me and boyfriend didn`t talk so much and that honestly made me upset . it just felt like he didn`t care @ all .. and it sucked . but atm hes really making it up by saying such sweet things to me <3
i love him :)
but yeah , GONNA FAIL SCHOOL (N)
not atm but soon times . have so much due on monday and im not even halfway done fcuk ! midterm i got 81 which is good , but won`t be there for too long LOL .
tmrw cousins birthday .. YAY .. ish
being around all his little friends for a whole day , and gonna fail school cos i won`t have time to do assignments . can someone say all nighter ): (n)
anyways , i`ll update soon < 3

- cw

" his ass is mine " LMFAO <3

hmm how to start this . NOVEMBER O7, O9 <333333333333

such a cute day LOL so to tell you my about my day cos it was that awesome .

so me and steven ( cute guy ) planned to go chill like a date cos it was long weekend and we can`t stand to be away from each other :) so we planned to hit the movies up (y) so we went to watch couples retreat . that was a hilarious movie with some akward moments when they start stripping LOL . but yeah , hes soo cuteee ( if hes reading this ..LFMAO ) but yeah during the movie he touched my hand and we end up holding hands. then during the movie he kissed me on the cheeeks :) so cute , i feel like a kiddd :D so yeah after movie we left to get some ice cream <3 never knew they had like gelato @ fmp :O so coool & good . so yeah we end up walking aorund outside to random places and just chilling , yesterday weather was so awesome too so it made the date even better (Y) so yeah he talked about school and stuff & we talked about me being a vamprite cos my hands are always SOO cold . idk why . anyways so he tried to keep me warm so he was hugging me . heheee , yeah so we walked around and cuddled everywhere . and then the call i didn`t want came .. ): my sis called me and spazzed @ me for being out late .. and yeah so then i had to go wait fro my sis @ fmp . and we were chilling by this exit hardly anyone went too .

and then it happened .. he whispered the words i was longing to hear .
" i love you " and then he just went straight out with it by saying wanna be my girlfriend .
that got me smilign real big LOL
and yeaaah we`re official now (Y) ‹з

awesome ass day , got in SO much trouble but SO worth it tho ;)
many more nights to come b

-cw ‹з

-- baby your love is gonna change me <3

& I know that we can be so amazin,
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....
Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out, You'll make me work so we can work to work it out, And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm....
I just haven't met you yet. <3>

aw man the song is SOO cute ! just the lyrics & the music video is adorable . i wonder if you can ever find the ONE @ a grocery store LOL ? ;) that would be sooo movie like love story ! sorry , mad addiction to the song :)

so lets see , whats beeen going on lately .. hmmmmm .. well , new relationships are devolping thats one thing LOL
so yeah two guys .. the one i said before (ladder ) and now casserole . yes i have gay names ): idk why LOL but yeah , i think im slowly falling for ladder . he is SOO sweet and just the past two days spending tiime with him was real cute. he just needs to talk more and i`ll be REAL happy. i know hes shy so im not gonna give up . im determined for what i want . us chilling & the park with angel and arrow LOL ! that was jks. the whole cheesy things the boys did to me and annie . " hey i bet you can`t jump over the bench ! - do you have faith in me " LMFAO . WTF that was soo gay , but i enjoy the heating up you boys did fro us girlies ;) but now in the back of my mind there is casserole .. he is REALLY sweet & like is SO boyfraaan material . but he just has to much of a best fraan guy to him .. i think he likes me too cos hes beeen tryin to signal it in and i honestly don`t know what to say to him .. i don`t wnna break his heart. he frikking protected me from this dude who keeps like pushing me ): im sorta torn in betweeen the two . ladder is SOO cute in his own way, and as cheesy he maybe sometimes .. i styll find it adorable :D but then there is casserole who would honestly ditch his friends to talk to me and we talk about just anything to each other . ladder is just a littlee teenie tiny shy sometimes .. so idk what to do sometimes . one min ladder is getting me fallin for me and then next when casserole talks with his kind words i fnd them so cute :) idk .. but like i think i wanna go for ladder .. like the song said .. -- i just haven`t met YOU yet <3

so also , yes LONNNNG blog i know . its frikking two in the morning . partyyy out today with old mmhs friends <3 missed their asses so darn much : ) jasmine buuurfday today and we had like a FASTASS eatng time @ tomato sushi LOL . fun timesss b . camwhored ALOT and had plently of laughs. thats how life should always be . shouldn`t let stuppid crap or money get in the way of happiness . just gotta remember live your life and take the risk as if there is no tomorrow (y) so im gonna go to bed , whoever actually reads this .. sorry for my whole confession moment heheee ! SLAM (L) :)

- cw

f'real ?

REALLY ? are you f'real . wtf already ?!
just beeen like a month ish into school and already shyt talkers on me . honestly thought this was a soft school .. ahah my ass . am i really calling for your attention ? and about my pants ? ARE YOU SERIOUS NIGGA ?!
honestly beoootches go suck yourselves and get over yourself . watever , you ain`t important and think that gets me down , AHAHA funny . no .

is there anything left in this world to satify me ? <3

so i haven`t been blogging for a PRETTY long time . things been going pretty well , things been changing over time . losing old friends and making new ones . thats what happens when things change .. you have to sacrifice to gain something . so yeah , schools been good , the boys have been good LOL espcially "ladder" , LMFAO , but it feels like sometimes hes like two different people . when i see him he`s different but when i talk to him on msn or text , he talks SOO much . im willing to get to know him but am i ready to put myself out there or should i keep it to myself . but honestly im willing to take that risk becos i rather have myself take the risk than to ever wonder what "could" have happened . so yeah , this yr i realize im really different . i really stepped up on the whole confidence thing and try to be more open and friendlier. so yeahh RUMOURS >; ( things already been said around the school about me ): ALREADY EHH . ONE MONTH and this ALL happens , darn it . but rather be somebody than nobody . but things have been good in life , just atm scared all that happiness might eb taken away . so imma continue on and taking risk becos i ain`t settling fro what " could" happen . so imma keep talking with him & hopefully make progress , i know hes a good guy and i`ll get to know him <3>

anyways , i`ll blog back soon hopefully , beeen pretty busy ! SEMI FORMAL today fro church which was aweosme and then i got into a PLAY <3>

ehh FML .

so school started ..boy was that a diaster . sure there are cute guys , don`t get me wrong . its just i thought people were gonna be friendlier . i`ve never thought this would be so hard . i actually cried in the car ride home after 2nd day of school . sad .. i know . its just people stare and ask what school i come from and automatically just assume im a bad kid or something . i really wanna make freinds . it really hurts not being my normal freinds . having to know that they`re having fun at school without you there sorta sucks . my mom is like oh you can make friends .. btu she doesn`t really its not that easy . something can`t be really done if both sides don`t contribute . its just right now i feel like FML . im trying to act like oh schools the best blah blah .. but i just never felt so outta place . i hope things will get better but the thing is right now im onna audition for willy wonka the play so i can get distracted from my school . idk why the new school is really taking a toll on me . so hard getting enough sleep and all . shcool starts at like 8 15 . holy cow that drives me nuts. i really wanna go to mmhs .. or at least for gr 12 to graduate with ym friends . life really sucks. inner pain that lawyas gonna be there ehh ..

i`ve got a feeling oohhh , thats its gonna be a good night {8}

dayum ! i got a good feeling that things will get better from now on . even though there were moments of downess (N) things just turn around from the frown LOL i sound so cheesy :D its all good . school is coming in a few days , i think im ready for it ! maybe it isn`t what i expect it to be .. hopefully right ? LOL . but imma take over it no matter what LMAO . tommrow school supply shopping YAY LOL . idk , shcool shopping is fun cos thats when parents can`t exactly say NO to you :D but yeah , i got all ym furniture at home . the new couch came in with like shoe rack and stuff . now the house is a home sweet home . today was fun with annie , chilled again after a long time . played DS . she pwned my ass on it ): so sad ! but imma kick her small ass one day on the karts ;) but yeah , chilled at the park being chsed by dayum misquitos ): but end up swinging on swings and talking about the moments that were fun and sorta devious in our lives . just realize when you talk about memories from before .. it feels as if they just happened yesterday . just can`t believe time pass by so fast you know .. too bad we can`t just stay in the good times . can`t wait too see whats ahead of this road i still walk in . and if mmhs people is reading this .. I AM VISITING ON FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL <>O STAY AT SCHOOL (: { i know its gonna be alrite from now on cos were all destines fro greatness <3

- cw

end of summer 'O9 )':

well , summer is ending (N) sucks ehh ? i know , every good thing has to end . but i guess for me this summer was a okay summer . full of drama and emotions i guess .. but i spent this summer with my family the most . i relaize how much i sometimes take advantage of them and its not right. my mom alwyas said to me appreciate things while you have em cos if you don`t , it can be taken away in a snap of a finger . which is true . so lately i have visited the USA .. BUFFALO . lame i know .. but fun in the end . was really planning for like NEW YORK ; MANHATTAN but i guess i gotta settle for less LOL . but we shopped. aeropostale there is MAD cheap . everything there were like 15 bucks or less . LOVE LOVE state shopping . interesting signs we saw on the way { adopt a street .. i want a street ): LMFAO . but yeeah , spent time with cousin and aunt . loads of fun . hopefully we can stay longer there next time and go sightseeing ! but it was real fun in the end , long ride but fun :D so whats next , few days before it all ends . i guess we`re finally gettign the new laether couch for our house and back to school shopping . atm trying to smooth over family drama and get everyone smiling again (y) but whats next for me .. trying to conquer school and fighting off my fears . i can do it , i am THE CHRISTINE WONG . i can walk in to that school and not fail LOL .. hopefully . im glad to have my best friend annie there with me . so .. aja aja fighting ! LOL { full house

` living life to the fullest and never be intimated cos im a phenemonal women !

aiighttttt baaaaabes , g`nights !
-cw <3

Take it From Here ..

uhmm .. today was a nice day . chilled with my mom :D yeah , nice way to start a blog ehh .so well , me and mom chilled at the mall and just drove around everywhere LOL . we drove in my moms old car . ohmygsh !! i love my moms new car . sun roof .. usb plugging , madd bass , heating chairs . maaan whatta turn on LOL , jks . but freal i love this car . soo gonna be mine one day i hope . but yeah . today i was in a mood of reminecing . <-- probably spelled it wrong watevers LOL but yeah , thinking back how life used to be simple ehh . who cared about money .. and clothes and stuff when all you had was a park , friends , school and recess . and there was always your elementry school loves ;) LOL those were aweosme days . just having a simple life but what we didn`t notice was that we were living it up even then . now we have this who whos cool and stupid image . missing our kiddy ages . where we had fun , liked a boy , fallen in love , had our frist kiss . memories really make me feel sad , but then again i should be happy that they happened right ? but yeah . i wuld trade anyhting just to go back to those days but i gotta take it from here and move on foward cos thats what we humans can only do . all we can do is just know that theres always another day . even if it was crap today where maybe someone not mentioning who yelled at you for not doing enough , even though they don`t realize when they were gone they did alot . you just gotta know there is a new day tommorow and you can make it better . but yeah . today was a sweet begginning and middle but a bitter end , but what i can i do right , just focus on the good and ignore those shyt ehh ;D but summer is ending O: i am finally admitting .. i am nervous as hell for PET . i have never moved before . idk how it feels to be in a place with no one you know . even tho annie moved up with me .. we haven`t been very close with each other this summer . but imma try to make things better . so one important thing before i end this blog is pretty much make well with those you haven`t spoken to for awhile :D way back to good times <33333

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PLANS FOR THIS WEEK { BUSSY LIKE HELL ! } ;

• monday { chilling with annie / house cleaning ?
• tuesday { regerstration day / checking out the school
  
• wednesday { reachign buffalo for school shoppinnng baaby ! ;)
• thursday { facial / make up day ? & ikeaa <3333333333
• friday { relax (Y) ;)

anyways thats it ! have fun reading my retarded blogs (Y) <3>

Cater 2 you .

hey everyone . sorry about totally being MIA lately . just been chilling at home . so yeah , updates .. uhmm .. school is starting up real soon . im pretty nervous i guess ? new kids , new place . try to make your way thru it . but i have Annie and others so i guess i`ll be fine . but at least school is not starting fro another like 1 and a half week right ? so during that time i am ; 1. BACK TO SCHOOL SHOPPING <3> a new car LOL . 3. just living life (: so those are the things i needa accomplish soon . and guess what ! i got two goldfish . their new home is in a fish bowl in my room LOL . i styll have no idea what to name em yet ): but its all good . my mom told me to name one Alexandra { my sisters name . LOL so i can yell at it cos i told her how its not fair that she has someone to yell at and i don`t . all i have is like uhh , no one LOL so shes like hears a goldfish .. have fun LOL . but yeah . might be chilling at fairview tomorrow , then cne on Sunday maybee .. and BUFFALO for more clothes . i think that's also why i want a job . to make $$$ = MORE CLOTHES . thats what sucks about being a girl . there is never TOO much clothes LMFAO . anyways . i guess thats an update about me lately . P.S ; i played three hours of NBA 2K9 and i rock those players ball ;) LOOOOL . good times cousin nick ! OH YA , one last thing LOL . i dyed my hair . imma put up a picture , sorry if i look really pale . but i guess its the lighting . this was taken when we were at acura getting a new car . 5 hours then maan , so i camwhore <3>cluding colour just by me saying acura .. creepy . but no worries , still love yaa ugly face ;D

new hair<3

my fishies ;D

anyways , outtie . xoxo . cw <3>

a walk to remember <3

heeeey y`all (: another day . this week was pretty interesting . chilled around with my homies LOL . what else did i do .. ? OH YA , i got gordon and stuppid loser jasmine to come to church with me LMFAO . was that a fun ass day . gordon is the POPMON champion { LOL . but yeah , that was a fun night even at moments where i wanted to kill jasmine but we manage . more to come ehh guys ? but yeah .. tommrow im going to ikea <3>;( buts its all good . summer is ALMOST over..sucks ehh . feels like you`ve just started to have knowing that it`ll be gone in days ): but live it to the max while you can right ? but yeaaah , am i going tot ny ? i have no clue . needa ask mom if we`re gonna go anywhere before my regerstration day cos i got plans to make for next week LOL . i so need a chillage with kenna and everyone else . missed you people . so have a good ass summer while its still here before it gets freezing coldd again LOL . anyways ; outtie .

- cw <3

everytime i come close to you ..

heyy y`all (: tittle was inspired by G DRAGON ! O: his new album sounds like it will be hot ehh . kenna and linda got me hooked to it . dayum . so today was sorta like a little awesome LOL . my good fellow friends came back up to chill with me . that made my day . this all goes out to kenna { my cha sew bow <3 & gordon baaby that fatass i love , & jasmineee my loser baby & gordons soon to be girlfriend linda LOL . aw man , summer is almost over , but i guess i had a somewhat good summer . a decent one at least . needa go back to school shopping for clothes . thats a defitnetly need (: OHMYGSH , today was a wack ass day . guess what . a damn tornado goign through vaughan mills . and my friends actually wanted to go wonderland .. HA my ass . you would have been stuck in the tornado and i would ahve been like toodles LOL :D but its all good . sad for the people who got their houses damaged by the T . maan i never thgouht they would actually near ontario cos its not flat land . so much for geo class . but yeah . school is gonna come soon , me ready . just not so sure . but can`t wait to meet the boys <3 but i can do it ehh . CLOTHES + BOYS <3 .. well ... outtie <3 ;)

- cw

everyday is a day for redemption .

another dayy .. yupp . tried to relax but didn`t . man .. is a plant that important . honestly . now shes all cheesed and stuff and like now its honestly buggin . they honestly don`t know how it feels like when you have no one to take the anger out . yeah i know its not good when you relaese it on someone but they do it . thank god im smart to use a blog . they just don`t relaize how hurtful it can be . mom sometimes just doesn`t settle for trying . it has to be this way or that way . she needs to get that she can`t get crap if she keeps demending it . honestly if she wants things done well , do it yourself or get a servant . im not tryng to be like selfish or anything , but i cut back a heck lot for her . not going out , stay home , do her stuff , bills .. everything . soon later i have school to think and stress over about . my life ain`t easy . things to do , trying to fit in . working hard .. honestly ain`t easy . summer is almost over .. this summer wasn`t super duper memorable . except wonderland , and VBS really . this summer i`ve never felt so out of my element . i`ve never felt so emotional and down . just thought summer was suppose to be having fun but really it feels like i took a visit to hell . just hope that things will get better . and maybe they will try to understand me . i relaize no one has ever asked if i was okay or if im alrite .. it sometimes feels as if im invisable or just a peasent . sucks ehh . what to do honestly. all i can do is give it time . crying ain`t gonna do much , except for getting pity which is not what i want . i know they get stressed and stuff . but i do too . thats what i need them to relaze . everyone else can raise they`re voice , yell at me and stuff . when i raise it i get screwed by my parents . like wtf really . noot fair . hope it gets better .. always time for redemption right ? hope so ..

you`ve got a big HA HA HA ego ;)

eyy , ahh ! schools almost starting up . haven`t been on the computer much since there was VBS . boy was that an awesome week . even though the kids beat the living crap out of me .. i still love em <3 everything has been hectic lately with moving and trying to get back at church , everyone seem really like distant with me and honestly it makes me feel really uncomfortable .. but i`ll get over cos gods here to protect me right ? LOL . OH YAS , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXANDRA AND GORDON BABY , i love you fatasses for lifeee man ! AND guess what ?! im getting new furniture . new bad , draws and all . time for a fresh new start cos school is stating up real soon. needa look fresh and proper for dem boys LOL . and i will be getting make up and facial , got ym hair cut . no moe hair dying , my hair is gonna be so damaged f'real . but hopefully i can reach the sex`d NY for a new wardrobe for school (Y) crossed fingers LOL . anyways outtie ;) nights <3 >

there`s more to Life if you listen to your <3

another day gone by . each day everyone learns something new or teaches someone something they don`t know . tommrow is church day . i was always fine with going to church .. but for some reason i have a feeling of isolation tommorow cos i haven`t been to church for a while . maybe it won`t be like that . as long as i just speak up and not be nervous about talking to people . i can do it . tomrmows meeting with VBS .. TEACHERS ASSITANT :O something i have never tried before . im pretty nervous about it . i can do all this , this is my way and gods way of getting me back on track with GOD . I CAN DO THIS <3 . so yeah .. cooking wiht my mom was fun today , i actually learned how to do some stuff and it was nice to spend time with my mom . alex is xomng back in about 2 days . excited .. not really . just actually not sure what to expect . hopefully all things go well but she doesn`t seem like a very accepting person atm. shes very angry and i allow her to be but in my opinion shes talking ths a little to far . but this is all her choice . godjust shine some light in this situation (: but if she wants to ignore me , its okay . i`ll let her do her thing . i gotta get on with my way , i can let her hold me back of what life should be to me . yeah i skipped church once but shes making a really big deal and it hard on me . but maybe one day she`ll let it all go . BUT maan, i gotta sit through her lectures .. again . shes gotta uderstand that all family there is ONE good child, & ONE bad child . thats what you expect . but i`ll do my best but she gotta relalize im not gonna be kissing up her as to get her to talk to me and make well with me . if thats how shes gonna be , thats a game she can play with herself. i realize these games are not worth playing , in the end someone gets hurt . i guess alex never knows about cos she thinks everything for me is all simply and easy . this month without her i really went into overly stressed . it feels like im the one wearing the pants . doing this and that . and what sucks it was i get twice as many chores i got before . sucks ehh . sumer is coming to an end , this summer isn`t that memorable . but maybe ths summer was a summer where i finally grew up . never strike back cos whats the point . someone is just gonna get hurt . if i ever gete angry , imma zen myself and let it all out through blog , this is my next new thing . { there`s more to life is you listen to your heart<3 tommrow is a new day and imma take t by the horns and be myself , no more holding back . i can do this .

keeping myself ZEN .

uhh another day of being myself . everything has been up and down ever since we move . yeah in the beginning me and alex were fine and going great while me and my mom was a hell storm to me . now that things are sorta getting better with my mom , things with alex is crap . she has been ignorng me and just doesn`t want me alive as if . things with dad is usual , him and his brainless mind man ! boys.. right LOL . so i`ve been pretty stressed , VBS pops out at me and im rushing everything . but people tend to do well when they are rushed so i guess im doing alright . things at home are never usual . me alone , alex mad , mom mad at dad , dad + tv . whatta normal family right .. i know -.- things with shawn seem to be not as bad as i thought . i thought the whole moving would really take a toll on our " daoughter and father " relationship you know , but really i`ve never felt so close with him . he`s always ears for me when i needa let out whats on my mind . will things get better this summer , i honestly thought this summer was gonna be better but it has been pretty much crap. will things with me and alex get better .. only god knows . but i feel god has been playing a big part in my life atm. yeah im sorry god for not being the good child or sheep ? LOL . i know i cuss and stuff , cos i have no where to express anger . but now i found blogging a really good way .. anyways back to what i was saying LOL .. GOD (A) .. i was extremly down this week , becos my mom would get mad at with everything in the house , when something goes wrong .. BAM its me to blame . i know i screw up and all , but doesn`t everyone ? i try to live day by day . i know i`ve been keeping bad thoguhts in my head but god somehows sends the right person to comfort me when i feel those moments. and when i feel like i have nowhere else to turn to .. god shows me a place where i can be just fine .. CHURCH . he made me not become a quitter .. i was gonna give up volunteering at vbs but then he got someone to email me and get me right back on track . imma do my volunteer hours this yr and next few years work , make money , get car , soon move to LA BAABY <3